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Conceal.

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 29, 2008, 8:19 PM
Conceal.

my heart aches every moment of the day
i don't cry, i bleed
the wounds don't heal but grow deeper
the scab fades into scar
but the memories are there - i feel them even now
lying alone in the dark...

i don't forget, i conceal
i can't forget, so i can't heal

i want to die and return to nothingness
what do i have here but my pain...
somehow important suddenly in it's utter insignificance

my mind imprisons me
sometimes it's so hard
a milky complexion of fear and suffering
only 18-years and i'm tired
oh god, so tired....

i don't forget, i conceal
i can't forget, so i can't heal

if this is life it's a joke
i'm so afraid this is all there is

no one will ever love me...

ashleigh. 2008.

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 18
  • Current Residence: somewhere
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: i have 117 scars over my entire body (so far...)
  • Print preference: i dunno... scars, piercings & tattoos
  • Interests: masochism, music, lyricism, poetry, photography, independent, low-budget, art-house & cult films
  • Favourite movie: Anything by David Lynch, David Cronenberg, Ken Russell, Mark Romanek, Michael Haneke, Tim Burton
  • Favourite band or musician: Joy Division, Sex Pistols, Nine Inch Nails (everything by Trent Reznor), Skinny Puppy, Rammstein,
  • Favourite genre of music: Slipknot, Stone Sour, The Doors, QOTSA, Death From Above 1979, TheTeaParty,CradleofFilth, DavidBowie
  • Favourite artist: Jamie C. Hewlett, Todd McFarlane, Kaja Blackley, Frank Miller, Salvador Dali
  • Favourite poet or writer: Martin McDonagh, Hunter S. Thompson, Irvine Welsh, Sebastian Horsley
  • Favourite photographer: Leibovitz, Annie
  • Favourite style of art: blood art, photography, charcoal portraits
  • Operating System: (more fav writers) William Burroughs, J.G. Ballard, Joseph Conrad
  • MP3 player of choice: don't care. as long as it works properly.
  • Favourite game: An integral part of any relationship is knowing that you could be killed in your sleep at any time.
  • Favourite gaming platform: (above quote; Trent Reznor)
  • Favourite cartoon character: Jack Skellington (TNBC), or Andy French (Mission Hill)
  • Personal Quote: The damaged love the damaged. - Chuck Palahniuk ('Snuff')
  • Tools of the Trade: a shitty, old digital camera - occational charcoal sketches

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~grip-my-hips:icongrip-my-hips: 6 hours 22 minutes ago
just my dirty little mind... :party: nevermind me. lol.
~Deej1011:iconDeej1011: 7 hours 5 minutes ago
Nuu. Telll meeee >>

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~Deej1011:iconDeej1011: 8 hours 32 minutes ago
Oh? And why dare you not?

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The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming.

You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain.

It's all part of the plan
~grip-my-hips:icongrip-my-hips: 15 hours 57 minutes ago
hehe. i dare not say. =P
~grip-my-hips:icongrip-my-hips: 15 hours 59 minutes ago
lol. no biting, well, not on the cheeks anyway. =P
~Six-Of-Hearts:iconSix-Of-Hearts: 1 day 6 hours ago
Thanx for the fav

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~Funkymunkz:iconFunkymunkz: 2 days 55 minutes ago Mood: Sociable
What, did people bite you on the cheeks or something? That's playing dirty!

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I want to stage the World's Biggest Pillow Fight in a field! Who's in?
~Deej1011:iconDeej1011: 2 days 6 hours ago Mood: Euphoric
hmm excited? like

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The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming.

You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain.

It's all part of the plan
~grip-my-hips:icongrip-my-hips: 2 days 17 hours ago
excited smiley. lol. : excited : ^^
~Funkymunkz:iconFunkymunkz: 3 days 2 hours ago
That feels good heheh!

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I want to stage the World's Biggest Pillow Fight in a field! Who's in?
~Deej1011:iconDeej1011: 4 days 4 hours ago
lol, what smiley is that? o.o

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The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming.

You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain.

It's all part of the plan
~Funkymunkz:iconFunkymunkz: 4 days 13 hours ago
Thanks for the Emergents II fave!

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~20h30:icon20h30: 4 days 15 hours ago
Thank you for the fav. :heart:
:D
~oZeroBoyo:iconoZeroBoyo: 4 days 20 hours ago
Thank you for the fav. :heart:
~Deej1011:iconDeej1011: 4 days 23 hours ago
aww ^^ :hug:

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The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming.

You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain.

It's all part of the plan
~Deej1011:iconDeej1011: 4 days 23 hours ago
mhm, kay indeed :)

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The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming.

You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain.

It's all part of the plan
~Deej1011:iconDeej1011: 4 days 23 hours ago
don't you shift those eyes at me missy >:P

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The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming.

You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain.

It's all part of the plan